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i hate thinking people have it so much easier because they have their parents with them.. cause i mean, everyone has their own shit to deal with. i’m not the one for many words, and i hate talking too much about how i feel and i’m working on that..here.. but i just hate that no one realizes i’m killing myself dying inside but i hate to burden anyone with my shit. i guess i just...

Feb 29th

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what the fuck is wrong with me. i don’t know anymore and i just- everything sucks and i can’t explain it and i feel judged and blamed for not knowing and obviously i try to consider everything and everyone but i can’t even talk to anybody.. i can’t talk to anyone at all, i over think everything too much and i’d hate to burden anyone with my crap. okay. i’m not...

Feb 27th

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I hate everyone

i’ve considered moving.. i consider it almost every week. I hate everyone..you make me so angry that you don’t realize the things you do and then you blame me every single time. and you, i just need you to listen, don’t say anything, maybe just ask what’s wrong, what happened..”don’t say that if you don’t mean it” or even “no, don’t...

Feb 27th

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i have never felt so alone. i don’t connect anymore, i just don’t. i have never thought more and more about leaving everything here and just moving to my parents. i just don’t know anymore.

Feb 22nd

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i know, but i can't.

i just don’t know how.

Feb 20th

Feb 18th

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Feb 14th

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Feb 14th

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Feb 14th

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I feel like dying

i fuck everything up..all the time, always. that is the only consistent thing about me. i’m sorry.

Feb 10th

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everyone's a light switch

mad, emotional, upset, sad, silent, all at once like a switch was turned on or off…but i’m not allowed to do the same…just smile and keep moving along…

Feb 6th

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died on the couch… i keep passing out at midnight, my body can’t take me neglecting it sleep anymore..

Feb 4th

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floralcupcakes: had a pretty sweet birthday yesterday! thanks for all the birthday wishes! my friends got me candles, and books and i finally have a starbucks mug!!! and jewellery and kesiah got me a puppy!!!! —stuffed husky :) OH! and i got green tea too! …more birthday rambles later.. i’m gonna go eat a cupcake lisa got me :)

Feb 3rd

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feel better patty!! THANKS for making last friday...

diskotron: Happy birthday Anaan and Joycelyn yay I feel like puking and I felt like putting up a text post so here ya go just delete this part if you want to reblog or something.

Feb 2nd

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easy come : easy go: HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY JOYBEARR... →

b-e-ll-e-catastrophe: Joycelyn, it’s your birthday. God bless you this day. You gave me the gift of a little sister, And I’m proud of you today. Joycelyn, it’s your birthday. Happy birthday, Joycelyn. Joycelyn, it’s your birthday. Happy birthday, Joycelyn. I wish you love and good will. I wish you peace and…

Feb 2nd

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Feb 2nd

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Jan 31st

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Jan 31st

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floralcupcakes: have not been to math class for the past couple of classes..test? quiz? tomorrow.. i’ll try my best /:

Jan 31st

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Jan 30th

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Jan 28th

i don't know what's real anymore.

i just want to get through.

Jan 26th

diskotron: Ingrid Michaelson’s CD was number one on iTunes and it just came out so I think that’s pretty cool. I really cannot wait to listen to the album because I need to drown myself in something magical such as Ingrid Michaelson’s music.

Jan 25th

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Jan 25th

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Jan 25th

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everything’s been pretty okay, like slowly getting better.. but then shit happens as it always does, and it’s your fault and you hate yourself but there’s no easy explanation, like you were abused, bullied… you’re just like this and you hate yourself for not knowing why, like a mental numbness until something bigger happens and you break.

Jan 25th

01.11.12

i wish it was simple. i tried to stop myself but it overpowered me, before i knew it, i was wiping it away, smile-unbroken.

Jan 11th

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i don't know what to do when people are constantly...

Nov 24th

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nights spent crying..

Nov 11th

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yesterday, at lunch, i sat at my locker, holding back the tears as i talked to my mom on the phone, all i could say was ‘how was work?’ when i wanted to say ‘i miss you please come back’ and again after school when i got to talk to my dad on the phone.

Oct 7th

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i haven’t been saying what i’ve wanted to say for a long time, mostly because i was being a good friend and listening to your problems. i’ve just told you in two, plain and simple words and that was it, it ended the conversation. was it too much?

Sep 15th

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can you just tell me if you don’t want to be friends anymore? i’ll stop bothering you..

Sep 15th

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fuck, i’m really starting to have a problem with people who have all this fucking negative energy around them, never giving anything a fucking try and i’m putting all this fucking effort in and i’m getting nothing back. like are you serious?! i have my own problems too but it’s not like it’s going to do any fucking good just showing it to everyone and then when...

Sep 10th

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school's started.

i really hope these first few days do not reflect how the rest of the school year is going to be.

Sep 9th

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thanks guys, i seriously feel all the love.

floralcupcakes: no one replies to anything.. i’m gone for half the summer and it’s like i don’t have any friends left, as if i don’t have any other problems to deal with. going back to toronto tomorrow.

Aug 31st

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so emotional, i just wanna cry but i keep stopping...

Aug 14th

summer of forgetting.

have you forgotten me already?

Aug 10th

Its 6:30am, i havent slept yet and i have to get up at 10am, i think i should just stay up, anyways, it’s nice just listening to the thunder and watching the lightning. Will update on all the crappy feelings ive had later. Hope everyone is having a wonderful summer xx

Aug 6th

so far it kinda sucks here

i know, it’s only been 3 days but i haven’t done a thing..i wanna go home.

Jul 28th

off to new york tomorrow!!!

it’s like 6AM, pulled an all nighter! i just couldn’t sleep, so i did my nails and now i guess i should pack the house cause we’re moving next door -____-“, plus side- kitchen is now on the same floor as my bedroom hehe. today is gonna be a packed day! pack up all house stuff and clothes and move it all next door! meet lisa and hang out with her til she has to go home, in...

Jul 21st

i'm worried about you

i don’t like that you runaway from home just to get away from her, i understand why you want to but it’s not safe and i don’t want you getting hurt.

Jun 30th

it doesn't hurt to try

but it’s so much easier when you don’t have to…still, i don’t want to lose your friendship.

Jun 25th

this feeling..

is so unexplainable.

Jun 21st

i'm done trying with my mom.

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Jun 14th

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she's just mean.

i don’t really understand why she hates on my other grandparents so much..

Jun 12th

3:42 am

yesterday morning i had my math exam, it finished at 11:00am i went to hang out with my friends and got home at 6:00pm, my sister and my mom weren’t home and since i was exhausted from the day (i had 3 hours of sleep the night before) i decided to sleep. i was woken up at 1:00am by my sister’s screaming and my mom’s yelling.. life’s great. on a better note, canucks won!

Jun 11th

i'm his sister

as his sister, i will try my best to be a good sister, don’t try and make me be the fucking parent, DO YOUR OWN JOB!

Jun 1st

i don't believe this is happening...again.

i need my bestfriend.

May 25th